There are days when my soul longs for Word. For living water to come and give me relief. Days when my soul becomes so weary, so distraught...that i forget who I am. O God, remind me who I am in You. For this day has been lived in anger, hurry, fatigue, pride, and lust for all that i do not have, and lack of love for what i do have. I am unworthy to come before the throne. Yet You have come, and ignored the usual sacrifices, even though you have no need for a sacrifice of anything, and prepared Your own body: to pay forever the great price of my grievous sin. Your sacrifice is eternal, Lord, nothing i could do could ever break it. And I still don't understand. The how, the why...why me? Why would a Holy God forsake his only son to death...for a fractured and flawed piece of ten cent pottery? I dont understand. I just dont understand. But I will never be the same.

  posted by Andy @ 4:33 PM

 
This makes me so angry. Not only as a Baptist, but as a Christian who believes that the church incarnate should be united, not bifurcated. If only those of us in Southern Baptist churches would see the dissention and the pharisaism in the leadership and plea for a change. Oh that the bride of Christ may be one! Oh that we may see that those we disagree with so fiercely are still our brothers and sisters! We as a church act no better than the 12-16 year olds i work with every day at the Boys and Girls Club. We quarrel, we fight, we provoke unending and meaningless drama. And for what? That a woman would be prevented from preaching the gospel of Christ? My God, how far have we fallen?

  posted by Andy @ 2:15 PM

 
"All things to all people, that i may win some."


Paul continues to be used to the furtherment of the gospel of Christ every time his words are read. Generations upon generations have looked upon onionleaf pages in hundreds of languages, and limped away forever changed. Once we understand the true meaning of Paul's confession,"For though I am free from all, I have made myself a servant to all, that I might win more of them", we cannot go about our lives in the same separatist and agnostic way. We must see that Christ's example of servanthood and sacrifice must carry over into our daily relationships. It is not just something to carry out within the walls of the church(for some, that's a very good place to start), but it must be upheld always, for it is fundamental to our lives.

  posted by Andy @ 10:24 AM

 
For some reason, i cannot get the tune of "Heartland" by U2 out of my head. It's haunting, enchanting. Especially to a person who is a "prison guard"(it's not that bad, but considering the cinder block surroundings...)to about 40 teenagers from 9 to 5 each day. I leave this place worn and weary...but more from lack of things to do, things to engage in(especially those that do not involve stupidvideos.com, or addictinggames.com), and the boredom caused by the lack of those things. But soon i will go to my car, put the windows down and drive. And i will be free.

  posted by Andy @ 3:44 PM