Yo. I didnt go bowling tonight. And i dont really miss it. Breathing smoke and getting blisters on my thumb from not being able to find the right ball is not really high on my list of things i'd like to do. At least not right now. More tomorrow.

  posted by Andy @ 11:31 PM

 
*Yawn* I slept til 11, but i'm still rather tired. I'm talking to my friend Paul from SLAM Ministries. He goes around and travels doing mission work with youth groups from around the US. But anyway. I'm watching Saved By The Bell. Talk about a trip to the past. I'm not getting anything now either. It's like there's just a wall standing in my way from writing. I'll be back later.

  posted by Andy @ 12:32 PM

 
Hey. I'm bored. And i think i'll probably stick with capitalization for the time being. Until i get tired of it. The short sentences might do it. And this is taking a while. Mostly because i have nothing really to talk about. But that's beside the issue. I spent pretty much all day either talking on the phone or burning stuff. We're (me and my dad) trying to burn down a large brush pile over the next couple of days, so it's up to me to keep putting stuff on the fire, and also keep it from catching the neighborhood on fire. Would definitely not be good. And still. I dont know how long this has been up. Good Goo, i have 22 people online on my buddy list. That's a lot. So, i'm still not finding anything relevant to write. Oh well, i might as well post. I'll probably write more later.

  posted by Andy @ 10:30 PM

 
Good Morning, Vietnam!!!! Sorry. Just had to do that. But seriously, good morning. How are ya? I'm fine, i guess. Just beginning another nothing day. And watching Dawson's Creek. Okay. Yeah, i know. It's Dawson's Creek. But hey, i've already written about this. Check the archives. But anyway. Really lost as to what to write. Finished the second verse on my song i'm working on. But that's about it. I'll try to write a chorus, but i have to find a chord progression for it that works. And also is somewhat different from the verse progression. But isnt the bridge progression. Songwriting may sound easy, and may be easy for some people(and has been easy for me at times), but this is something i want to finish, and it's taking a pretty good amount of work. Well, i'll get off of here for now. Probably more to come today. Later.

  posted by Andy @ 10:50 AM

 
That, my friend, is a pitiful introduction.


When reading the above statement, remember that it goes top to bottom in order of time(newest to oldest).

  posted by Andy @ 11:49 PM

 
Hey yall, mo news! I'm adding members like gangbusters! Whooohooo! hehe. The newest man on the scene, is a man named Mike from Florida. Yet again, more contrast to my stream of consiousness babble. Well, for more introduction, I'll leave that to him. I'm off. Hasta.

  posted by Andy @ 11:34 PM

 
Hey, what's up? I'm feeling punctuated, i think. So, i'm actually going to punctuate and capitalize this post. Just for funsies. I just got back from church, and still havent eaten anything yet. Parents are in Pigeon Forge. For some reason, they always decide to go on Sundays instead of any other day(it is summer after all). But it's not really a big deal. I like being home alone, actually. I'll probably use this time to do some writing. Cause it's been a pretty good while since i've cranked out a whole song. Like before Fuge. Beginning of the month. So i figure i'm due. Or at least i hope i'm due.

I'm also sitting here watching a show called "The Brendan Leonard Show" on ABC Family. Quite good. It's like a......well, i dont really know exactly what it's like, but watch it, you'll like it. I'm pretty sure of it. Check your local listings. Why? Well, because i said so, for one, and also, i dont know tv schedules all over the nation. Not enough time, i guess. Oh well, i'm going to get off of here. But i'll be back. Later.

  posted by Andy @ 1:04 PM

 
okay. revision time. now that it's been a couple of days, let's get back down and really discuss what's going on, because, to be honest, i didnt do a good job of explaining the situation. here it is. it's not a Thing, but a thing that borders on becoming a Thing. i just did a bad evaluation of my situation because of my good fortune. some of you may think(and have expressed this thought to me), "a month? you've only known her a month and decided to make her your girlfriend(i say, rather put her on the fast track to becoming that, but still.)?" well, i say this. "YOU DONT KNOW ME! YOU CANT JUDGE ME! GET OUT OF MY FACE! I'LL CUT YOU! *snap snap* *brush of the hair*"

not really, i'm just joking, and if you know me, you know that i am. but i've talked to this girl every day for the past month, and have gotten a very good feel for who she is as a person, and in her walk with Christ. i know that i'm not a genius when it comes to the ladies, but i am using my brain a whole lot more than my heart. believe me when i say that my heart will not be invested too soon. i know the price that i could pay for that, because i've seen the damage done when people who have done that have broken up. and i dont want any part of it. so. that being said, let me use this time to make an announcement. we have a new member in our ranks(yeah, what populous ranks we do have, especially with it being just me and joe.), his name is john, he's from virginia, and was my roommate last summer. he'll post when he can, and i think will bring a pretty good perspective up-in-hrrrrreee to offset my random stream of consiousness ramblings. and that, friends, is a good thing. believe me.

  posted by Andy @ 1:40 AM

 
well. new revelation. the courtney thing. remember the courtney thing? ya know, the thing that wasnt quite a thing yet? well, tonight, it became a Thing. dont even ask me how it happened, but it did. we were sitting there, and then we were holding hands. so. i have a girlfriend now. off the market. not like i've been really perusing the market and doing a whole lot of shopping, but still. i'm off the market. and it still hasnt hit yet. i've been single for so long, that i really dont know what to do with myself. i really want to take this slow and not let my foot slam the gas pedal. i want this to be on God's timetable and not mine. but anyway. i really dont need to be listening to my heart right now. cause i'm not sure if it's on my side/God's side. i need to listen to Christ, and him alone.

  posted by Andy @ 1:34 AM

 
yeah, that was joe, he's a crazy kid...his site's also there on the links menu...and also knows html a whole lot better than i do, so...yeah. i think i'll finish up the courtney thing tonight after i get back from New City. hmm...what else...you might see adam on here some...i'm thinking about adding some folkage on here to get more viewpoints than just me. so if you want to write on here, shout me a holler.

  posted by Andy @ 4:56 PM

 
hey, i'm doing some work on the blog, with the help of joe. on your left, you'll see a new list of links that will point you to different sites...cool, huh? more to come later.

  posted by Andy @ 4:42 PM

 
okay. grr. only slightly angry. i just lost pretty much an entire post. just because i hit some stupid link. that makes me angry. but anyway. silence. the silence of a cool summer night when all in the house are asleep but you. it is truly a thing of beauty. especially when the clock reads 1:08 am. there's going to be something new forthcoming from me here soon...i'll be posting some of the lyrics of the songs that i have written for feedback and general stuff...joe, i'll need some help from you to add some links to the front page that i've been wanting to add for a while now. so get in touch with me soon if you could. that would rock some serious face. but anyway. i'm going to talk some about the courtney thing. so you ask, "courtney thing? i thought there was just the emily thing!" well, the emily thing is dead and gone, remember? and while the courtney thing is not a true thing and is most definitely not a Thing, it is close to being a thing. so that's what i'm calling it. so here's some background on the courtney thing to get you caught up with me. i "met" courtney on the internet. yeah, yeah. i know what you're thinking. "oooh...he met someone on the internet! i bet it's going to be a 40 year old man!" well, stop. for one, that's not what's going on, and for two, that's just sick. absolutely sick. moving on...she had emailed me, so i checked her profile on emode(what?...yeah, i did the emode thing. leave me alone. it does not make me less of a man.) and i found out more about where she lived and that type stuff. so i emailed her back. it turns out that she knew one of the guys i worked with at ba-yo-ca. so that gave her some legitness...hey, it's a little late, so i'll finish this up tomorrow...until then-Andy

  posted by Andy @ 1:29 AM

 
so. it's been...two weeks since i've written on here, so i figure i'm due. if you've been reading adam's blog, you'll know that i've been kind of busy lately. last weekend, adam and i went to ridgecrest, north carolina to lead worship for magna view baptist's youth retreat. it was a cool experience...as adam wrote, we went on a night hike on saturday night, and let's just say that chaos was what ensued on the way up the mountain. it was the mob mentality like i've never seen. but only this time, everyone was split, so that the mob did nothing but cause chaos to ensue...but isnt that what a mob does? i'm not really chock full of things to say...so i'm debating over whether or not to let myself slip into stream-of-consiousness...and i think i will. i cant wait to move into the dorm. i have less than a month until that happens, and i'm not really all that sure of what effect that will have on the relationship my parents and i have. hopefully, it will have the desired effect(that of more independance and less hassle). i'm also in an odd place in my love life(i know, i know...love life? what's that?). the emily thing. remember the emily thing? well, forget about the emily thing. i'm tired of it, and tired of running and chasing after a girl i know that will never return whatever i give. so the emily thing is dead and buried. good riddance if you ask me. the thing that i didnt expect to happen is the friendship with courtney that has blossomed. and now, i would not be opposed to something happening. but i definitely want to take it slow. and i may not want to consider anything along those lines right now. but anyway, i still dont know what i'm going to do. so. what have you learned today? that i have no idea where i'm at. and to be honest, it's the safest i've felt. because i have no control at this point.-Andy

  posted by Andy @ 5:42 PM

 
yeah...i thank God that i have this place(that's on the internet of all places) where i can write out how i feel, without any of the involved parties knowing(save an extensive search on google)...okay, here's what's going down. i'm just going to let this junk flow without rhyme or reason. the emily thing. remember the emily thing? yeah, that's still viable concern wise to me. actually very viable...so viable that it drives me up the wall thinking about it. well, that's not the only thing. there's also this other girl. her name is courtney. she lives in maryville, and it's an internet thing...so i'm trying to keep distance, but she may be wanting more than friendship. yeah. kinda scary. but not that scary, considering that in my talks with her over the past couple of weeks, she's shown herself to be pretty cool, but that's still a non viable concern. then there's the new thing. well, not really a thing, but a girl. her name is garland. she's an mk (military kid) and is the granddaughter of the former interim pastor at my church. i met her last year at church, but didnt really get to know her remotely well until last summer while i was up at carson-newman. i was a student, she was a camper. but anyway, we vibed (clarification: we only vibed...that was it.) and all that, and then she left to go back to south america where her mom and dad are. and we've been keeping in touch with each other a lot(well, as often as we're both online). then tonight, she sends me this email. i'll just quote an excerpt of it. and i quote:

"Maybe there's something wrong with me but it seems like everytime we talk it's a slap of reality. That may sound so cliche but it feels true. And I'm not just talking about the Church stuff. I'm sorry that we didn't hang out more when I was in TN. I don't know if it is the music I'm listening to or what that is making me say what I'm saying ... call me crazy. I miss you. I really like you. "

and now comes the confusion. i have no idea which road to go down. the three that i can see-the many more that i cant-i can only trust in Him to guide me through. and now i am totally blind. please guide me.


and truth be told, i dont know what keeps me from saying those exact words to emily...or maybe these.

i dont know what to think anymore. my head says, "hey, she's moving away, then we can move on and forget about this whole thing." but my heart just asks, "why?" why forget what might be? truth be told, i've liked you ever since i first met you at camp. but i held back, because you were going through the breakup, and i didnt want to be the rebound guy. i liked you too much for that. but after that, i held back again. this time for reasons that i cant remember, or maybe dont even know. maybe it was because of all the times i've been burned by heather. sure, if you turn me down, my mind said, it wont be the end of the world, you'll get back up and move on. but my heart for some reason said, "i dont think i want to be burned again. not so soon. not yet." so i plunged my feelings for you down, and forgot about them for a while. it was easy when you werent there, except in the picture beside my bed. and now you're leaving. and i seriously dont know what to think. sure life will go on, but do i want to lose you in the process? i still dont know the answer.

  posted by Andy @ 1:56 AM

 
hey guys, i'm back from centrifuge...and i'm still sorting out all the things that have changed, and that i've learned...and i'm praying that i keep it all, and dont let any of it go...if you wanna hear some good music, come out to New City Cafe on thursday night, i'll be playing, Adam from nothing done will be playing(i think...it depends on his mood) the Cox brothers will be playing(Brantley on guitar and vocals, and Stephen on percussion and instrumental/harmony vocal)...btw, if you havent heard Stephen Cox sing, do yourself a favor and come down. it is incredible. and i'd say that Bethany Nobles will also be playing as well. and that's always a good thing...plus, various others will be there too...so come on down and have yourself a good time...plus, it's free! that's the end of my commercial, and my post...see y'all later...and for crying out loud, post on the comments thingy...that's what it's there for. until next time, Andy

  posted by Andy @ 6:57 PM